After having a confusing time I am planning to explore another area a lot more in my development of work. i want to have a look at my photography a lot more - experiment with different ways to display/present and create an installation with the works. In particular, looking at transparency.

My paintings were interesting and good for letting out emotions in relation to my unconscious but they were not very useful in helping me to communicate with my audience...I do really like the effects they create, the markings and writing is something I really love about them as they are so personal that it makes me truly connect with my work and feel emotions have been purged. However, the pieces are almost too "solid" when trying to portray a level of the unconscious. The unconscious is a separate layer to the mind from the conscious mind and the thick boards seemed to not show such a fragile concept of the unconscious mind's thoughts/ memories and desires. During a group tutorial, the group understood some of the concepts I wanted to put across but these were only on a surface level e.g the writing written in the paint, thickness of the oils, markings/textures etc. All features pointed to an expressive piece but it was not progressive. It didn't show anything new. Maybe it would have been interesting to create smaller ones...however the size was relevant at the time and the pieces are not all lost - they will show their use in time.

I am trying not to feel really bad about my work, I feel like all the pieces I try so hard to do are just all useless. So far most of my paintings have not worked out how i want them to...I wonder whether I am working in the right direction at all. I keep trying to remind myself that it is all a development process but I guess often it just feels like my work is not very good at all or coming to together as anything. I will keep trying, the more I experiment the better it will get...hopefully.

It's all a case of experimentation so if I have progressed more through experimentation then it can only be a real gurd thing :) Just need to catch up on documentation...need to get a new book!